Post Op Day 450
I tried. I tried twice and I just couldn’t do it this morning. My long run. It just wasn’t happening.
On my first attempt I drove an hour to a trail where I could run a loop twice to get in my miles. I arrived to find the trail completely overgrown. Like I needed a chainsaw or some hedge trimmers in hand to make it through. The trail was awful and completely covered in super thick spider webs (my reaction to those stringy awful fishing-line-thick webs is the gif below). No one had been on that trail for a while. I tried for about .5 a mile before giving up and turning back. Frustrated because 1) I’d driven an hour and 2) this was at a friggin state park. Trim back the trails, darn it.
SO I headed back towards home and decided to go to my old reliable 8-mile trail by the lake. The trail had been open for about an hour and I hoped that at least one person had hiked it before me so all the spider webs would be cleared. But no. No such luck. I once again made it about .5 a mile before walking into an enormous spider web and having the spider land smack on my chest. NOPE. DONE.
So I turned back and thought, well… I have a protein shake with me, I’ll drink and it and sit and wait for someone else to arrive and go ahead of me. Smart thinking, right? It’s a popular trail. Someone is bound to arrive soon. So shake, shake, shake, open, sip and AIGHHGHGHGHGHGH it was lumpy and had a lot of solids in it and was just wrong. I had to spit it out. (has that ever happened to you with the ready-t0-drink shakes in the tetra packs? I get a “bad” one every so often. SO irritating.)
Irritated and hungry I gave in.. not happening this morning.
There might still be a chance for me to get my run in later. I don’t know. I feel really awful today. Just drained. Batteries at zero. I awoke at 2am this morning and could not get back to sleep.. this girl does not function well on 4-5 hours of sleep. I also have what passes for a period today. I also am still incredibly rashy. I also really just kind of want to cry. Ever have those days? Ugh.
I figure, at the end of the day… it’s just a run. Who really cares if I do it or not. I know that’s a “bad attitude” but it’s the truth. I run a lot. I pushed hard on my run on Wednesday. I have a half marathon one week from today. I am 10000% confident I can run that distance, especially on a flat road course. I know I need to do some easy(ish) runs this week. Nothing bad will happen if I don’t get in today’s 12-14 miles. It’ll be alright. The world will go on. I could, instead, jog 3 or 4 miles.. and yep.. world would keep right on spinning.
I have to say though, that this morning after wussing out of two different trails because of: spiders, branches, overgrown bushes, and downed trees that I’m second guessing my ability to succeed at trail running. Like, why am I doing this again? Why isn’t running in my neighborhood perfectly adequate? There are no massive terrifying spiders on the sidewalks where I live! Why do I have to do the hardest thing possible? Could there be a world in which I could trail run without actually having to…. run on trails??!?! hahaha
I’m sure I’ll change my attitude about it once I have some sleep and start to feel better. But right now, my treadmill is looking mighty nice.